As the deer pants for the water so my soul longs after Thee. You alone are my heart's desire and I long to worship Thee. (Psalm 42:1)
Jesus said, "If you love me you will keep my commandments." As tears flow down my cheeks and continue to well up and pool in my lower lid, and I realize that all I want to do is to be "lovesick" over Jesus. I am awakened with my inability to truly love Him in my own flesh.
I realize that in my flesh, I have perhaps thought of myself more highly than I should have at times. I am sober. In my quietness before the Lord God, I am made sober even as I am humbled. In humility, we are able to see that our own "love" is never enough. I could never love him enough in my own flesh. I don't even know how to love my neighbor, much more love my God. And then..... as I am made to see myself and as I am humbled and reminded to become more like a child before Him...I rest. In my rest, I rely on Him. In my rest, I depend on Him. In my rest... I love Him...because I allow Him to BE through me. In my humility, He is able to BE.
Oh, make me a LOVESICK child of Yours, Father. I want to be LOVESICK over YOU. I want to pant after You and long after You. In Jesus' name.
--- Shauna Harrison